More grace and mercy than all the world can hold.

Don't you just have that super strong feeling of guilt in you when you disappoint someone but they don't shout at you? I fall. I'm human. But God never shouts at me... He always rebukes me in a soft spoken way. And because of His gentleness I can't bear to be near Him. When I am dirty and He is clean... How can I bear to dirty Him by being near Him?

He spoke again, to me concerning Psalm 51:7-11

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Make me hear joy and gladness,
That the bones you have broken may rejoice.
Hide Your face from my sins,
And blot out all my iniquities.

Create in me a clean heart, O God,
And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from Your presence,
And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.

As I read the last words of verse 11 He spoke once again to me, and said, "If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those that ask of Him?

Therefore My son,
I shall purge you with hyssop,
and you shall be clean.
I shall wash you with the blood of My Son,
and you shall be whiter than snow.
I shall make you hear joy and gladness,
that the bones I have broken may rejoice.
I shall hide my face from your sins,
and blot out all your iniquities.

I shall create in you a clean heart,
that breaks when My heart breaks.
And I shall also give you a steadfast spirit,
that shall not falter even in the face of adversity.
I shall not cast you away from My presence.
And I shall also not take away My Holy Spirit from you."

Christmas. That's why I live.

I wanna wish you a merry Christmas! (3X)

From the bottom of my heart!



Feliz Navidad! (3X)

Prospero a-noy felizidad!



Merry Christmas to all of you peeps! Christmas, A season to give and forgive. Why? God gave His only Son to us, a fallen race. And through this act of giving He is actually forgiving us for our sins. So truly it is the season to give and to forgive.



A day of joy, hope, peace, giving, receiving (HEHE, alot of presents), forgiving, goodwill to all man, and love. Today my mum came to church, and this truly is an open door for us. she didn't receive Christ yet. But I know she enjoyed pastor's message. She was just repeating what pastor preached to Belle. HAHAHA. And while she has yet to receive Christ, I'm quite happy that she gave positive response about the church. All praise to the Lord! As we continue to pray for her, she will slowly but surely be integrated into the church. This I believe with all my heart. And the latter reign is better than the former. I will share more on why I put this on my blog on Saturday. See you guys on Saturday. Also Pastor preached a very short and simple message today, but It was very good. While he preached, I was searching myself. I'm sorry to all those whom I've misuse, mislead and mistreated. Pastor also preached on cribs. We talk about it in our Christmas stories, we sing about it in our Christmas carols. But it actually means



C rucial

R elationships

I nitiated

B y the

S avior

That's what cribs is actually peeps... And yeah, God has placed many friends in my life. They are really Crucial Relationships Initiated by the Savior. These people are all important to God. If they are important to God, why shouldn't they be important to me? So, people who think others are not important, especially your family and friends... REPENT!!! Turn over a new leaf, look at them in a different light. Remeber the sermon on the mount? We shouldn't be judgemental, for it is only God who is worthy to judge. So dear friends, lets no longer be fair weatherd friends, but stand by our loved ones and friends through Thick and Thin. Amen?

While blogging I'm actually waiting for midnight. It is when I'll start caroling and making noise on my new guitar! ( ^o^ ) To celebrate Jesus' birthday. Happy birthday to You, happy birthday to You HAppy birthday to Jesus! Happy birthday to You!

So until then, I'm Ayron. Keep rawking for Christ our Lord!

Let there be light

I'm sitting at my computer now, blogging, obviously. Everything seems so peaceful now. Time really flies. Just 3 hours ago Fong, Daniel, Ryan, Sap, Shyang Zhi, Belle, Lokies and I were having dinner at the hawker center near my house. Only, it wasn't as fun as it would be. No details need to be given right now. Had a walk with Lokies and we just talked, and talked. And going through this valley is tough, but then as we continued to talk, I found myself crying. Not because I was sad, but because I AM convicted by what he spoke. And Jesus said "Come on to the water". So I came. "Walk till you see the shore, your destination, your destiny." said Jesus. So I walked. On the way I saw a boat, and on it was my family, and I asked them "Would you step out of the boat and walk with me?" Further on as I walked I saw, yet again, another boat. In it was my friends, and I asked them "Would you step out of the boat of the boat and walk with me?" And when I reached my destination, there they were, all of them. On the shore with me. As I visualized it, I continued to weep, tears of amazement. I was, again, shown another vision. This time I was walking, in darkness. And in the dark I could not see. I called out to the Lord, but no answer. I continued walking in the dark, and I called out to the Lord again. This time He said, "Here I am." And I cried out, saying "Lord, I can't see in the dark. I don't know If the path I'm taking is the right path. But I feel like I've strayed either all the way to the left, or all the way to the right." So the Lord said, "Hear my voice Ayron. Follow it, and I shall lead you back to the right path." And again, I wept. As Lokies was ministering to me, I found myself drifting into deep slumber. As I slept my mind was a blank. Slipping in and out of consciousness. At one point I even felt that my eyes couldn't open. But that didn't matter. I awoke about half an hour later. And Lokies was still there! Thanks for going the extra mile for me. After crying for what seemed like an eternity and sleeping for half an hour. I felt the peace of God. It was so peaceful. Even as we left the hawker center I could still feel the presence of the Lord. And it is so glorious. I just wanted that moment to go on, and on, and on.

Thanks, Lokies, for being there for me, for your words of encouragement. Words can hardly describe how grateful I am for what you've done for me.

Thank You, God, for being my Abba Father, for Your grace and mercy which is renewed for us each day. Also, thank You for loving me.

Thank You, Jesus, for being dying on the cross for my sins. Thank You for being my Lord and Saviour, and once again, words can't describe how much I thank You.

Holy Spirit, thank You, for being my Guide, my Comforter and my Closest Friend.

Campfire Night.

Day 2

Woke up early in the morning at about 7+. Then went to wash up and went off to serve breakfast. Very good breakfast. Afterwards we went to have session with Eric. Very good preacher, great man of God. He was good in getting our attention, even though we were tired. During worship, I cried. The wonderful, glorious presence of God was there. Then we went off for fun and games. We played scavenger hunt and went around looking for clues. we only got 4 clues out of the 6. No matter, we did our best. Then we were about to play a very dirty and wet game. Every group has a prisoner and those prisoners would be pelted with water bombs and eggs, by the prison warden. And the attackers would go and save the prisoners, but if they're tapped by the defenders, then he/she would go to jail and get pelted. I wasn't very pleased with the fact that I was gonna get dirty. THen in the nick of time, it started raining. Hallelujah! But then we went to play an improvised version of the game. The objective now would be to steal our opponents slippers, while making sure our own wasn't stolen. We had much fun. Then we went off to have a shower or to practice our drama. Had great fun once again, yours truly was in the production, as a zombie. He he...

Went off to enjoy the campfire after the rehearsals, we sang campfire songs and did our cheers and did the wave. It was very enjoyable. For those of you who didn;t come well, we still have next year!

Pastor Zhuang then preached a little on Christmas, we had much fun, caroling and all that. Then we were allowed to turn in earlier, but then we went to the canteen after my shower to fellowship with the other fellas who were down there. Some of us wanted to eat McDonalds for supper, don't you know it's fattening?! Anyways Sap and I went back to sleep first. Woke up the very next day and Joshua asked 'Did you know I kicked your head last night?' Well, praise the Lord, I'm a deep sleeper. Hehe...

The blood we shed. The tears we cried (Not!)

At long last I'm back to blog. I was away at the Breakaway youth camp. For those who missed it don't worry. There'll most likely be another one next year due to great response. Camp was fun, food was great, people there were nice.

Day 1
Assembled at Kuo Chuan presbyterian sec school for camp. started off with some ice breakers like Whacko! and then afterwards changed to...??? Did we change games? Sorry for the bad memory... I guess I'm a little STM. But anyways afterwards we did the House cheer. So it's something like...

Who are who are who are we?
We are we are we are who?
Who are we?
We are who?
Paladin Paladin all the way
Together we fight united we stand
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y
Victory victory is our cry
Paladin Paladin
Fight Fight Fight
(11x clap) Paladin
(11x clap) Paladin
Pala-pa-pa-pa
Paladin!

Yup, that's our cheer baby... Go Paladin! After that we went to put our stuff in the bunk and went for lunch. Great lunch. But then again if you're hungry anything tastes good. Hehe... Then we went off to play some fun (By which I mean dirty and wet) activities. We didn't manage to complete all due to time constraint, we had much fun though. Then we all assembled for a giant water balloon fight. We formed alliances with the other houses, or is it the other way around? In any case we formed alliances. Then we went against our word. Why? Because the other team was just waiting for us to use up our water balloons, then they attack us. But we're not that dumb. So we attacked them... Just like Hitler attacking Russia. But we emerged victorious, somewhat, unlike Hitler. Then we went off to have our shower and what not, I was the toilet IC along with Valerie (spelt right?) from Paladin 3. It's tough... If people won't listen to the toilet IC what more the Team leaders and Asst. Team leaders? Hats off to you guys. You were just fantastic. In the end I managed to get a shower, then went off to have dinner, it was Paladin's turn to serve and clean up, we didn't do a good job, turns out, so we had to do it again for day 2's breakfast. after thatwe went off to have session with Pastor Zhuang. Great man of God, great word he shared. then we went off to thehall for debrief... only to be taken for a night walk with blind folds on, didn't really enjoy it much cause I was pooped... But one thing the terrorist said was really funny...

Ever since I join Al Quaeda, I have never been to church. If I did, I would bomb it, just like that. (throws chain on to the ground)

I wanted to say 'go bomb lah' but decided not to... waste of saliva and energy. In the end we finished the night walk and went to sleep...

Hint to all those who are going for camp. Sleep in your sleeping bag, never on it.

Day 2 on another entry. Gotta get some ZZZ's, got work tomorrow.

Sheep and the shepherd

I have never felt so tired yet peaceful in the longest time. Lokies, Jin Hong, Shyang Zhi, Kelvin and I stayed over at Joel's place last night. Instead of sleeping we spent the whole night playing games. Metal Slug, Dragonball, Digimon and Lokies' favourite the PSP. Afterwards we prayed a little for the Breakaway Youth Camp, our friends who are overseas and Joshua and Schumann, their having their common tests. C'mon you guys! You can do it! We're all rooting for you! Woot! After praying Lokies and Joel went on to play soccer on the PS2. Kelvin and I were playing the PSP trying to unlock Gaara. Then we went out for breakfast, it was quite nice to walk in the wind so early in the morning. Now I have another reason to get up early. Then we all went backto Joel's house to get some shut eye. I awoke again at about 7:30 am, but I didn't see anyone, all I saw were sleepy sheeps and a sleepy shepherd. (By the way, one of the sheep was still playing PSP) But in any case the time of fellowship we had last night/this morning, was truly a slice of heaven. I thoroughly enjoyed myself.

My God is so real.

Yesterday I had my best 2 hours, reading the Bible just before my tuition I finished the book of Jeremiah. In it it talks about what Israel and Judah have done and what would happen, it's like a book of prophecies. Wait a minute, it is! But anyways it says that they will be taken captive by king Nebuchadnezzar, to a land called Babylon. Afterwards I did some research on the internet, oh, the wonders of modern science, and I found out that this event actually happened. now don't say that I do not have faith in the word of God, I was just curious. Besides now I know how to rebutt my dad when he calls the Bible a ' work of fiction'.

Went on to read certain articles by a man called Charles Darwin, he was the 'genius' who came up with the 'theory of evolution' and 'survival of the fittest'. According to Darwin we evolved from monkeys, and we are here because we were the smartest monkeys around. So slowly from monkeys we became man, and the reason why we are still man is because we inherited the 'human' genes from our 'once-were-monkey' ancestors. Wow! This statement rocked the foundations of faith for many people and strengthened the belief , for many, that God didn't exist. However scientists have now proven by experimentation on lab rats that this is not true. If scientist can prove Darwin was wrong then how did we come about? I leave it to you to decide, but I know God created everything. That's how I am where I am today.

Sir Isaac Newton, one of the world's most famed mathematicians once said:

Gravity explains the motions of the planets, but it cannot explain who set the planets in motion.
God governs all things and knows all that is or can be done.

This most beautiful system of the sun, planets, and comets, could only proceed from the counsel and dominion of an intelligent Being. … This Being governs all things, not as the soul of the world, but as Lord over all; and on account of His dominion He is wont to be called “Lord God” παντοκρατωρ [pantokratōr], or “Universal Ruler”. … The Supreme God is a Being eternal, infinite, absolutely perfect.

Opposition to godliness is atheism in profession and idolatry in practice. Atheism is so senseless and odious to mankind that it never had many professors.

All these facts are great in strengthening my faith, but these are just words. It is the personal experiences with God, my Abba Father, that let me know He is real. To all those who think me as a fool I have but one thing to say. God says I'm 'cool'!

At Last

It's been a week since I've been able to blog, too busy over here at work. But anyways I'm back! We've just moved back to our Jurong West church building, and it's amazing! The place was cozier, seats were defintely more comfortable, and it just feels more like home. Though I've never had a proper church service there, it feels like I've been there all my life. Truly is great to be in the house of God. A day in His court is better than a thousand. I'd rather be a floor scrubber in the house of my God than a prince in the palace of sin.

After service we went to NTU to engage in sport activities, mainly B-ball. But that wasn't my cup of tea, so I went running instead. I ran 2.4 km, which was quite suprising. I never knew I could run on a day when I had a choice not to. But anyways the run was great. could feel the energy surging through me. Heheh. Then we decided to catch a movie, but not many people could come so we cancelled it. I was also supposed to have my first CL lesson, but due to the fact that we were having fun that day it was postponed to today (Tuesday).

So that's that, I will have my first CL lesson later in the evening, seeing that my house is being renovated right now it's a great idea to get outta the house.

Until then this is Ayron, keep on rawking for Christ!