Fruitful or no?

It is now 5:44 pm, a beautiful Wednesday afternoon. The sun is shining brightly. But I'm feeling gloomy... If I didn't hear what I heard would I feel any different? Perhaps... I'll never know unless I can relive that moment in time again. Already asked some friends to come for the F.I.R concert at church this Saturday. All gave the most hated reply, "Don't know leh...", "See first lor...". That didn't discourage me... I simply asked their friends. But as you know... Same reply... Already I've heard that Cheng Hui and Fen Mien will be coming. I shall rejoice in the knowledge that they are coming. But on my side... Zilch... Why? Did I not ask them enough? Did I not pray for them enough? Did I not fast enough? I don't know... But one thing I know is that it's not fruitful. If other trees in this orchard ,we call Jesus, can bear fruit why not I? Am I to be a barren tree unlike the others? While the Bible did say that Jesus said "Well done, my good and faithful servant." At the end of the day I want Him to tell me that because I did something. Perhaps I should be cut down. Perhaps I should perservere. It seems so easy to just put the ax to the roots now... But would it please God?