Nightmares...

Um... ... It's not easy Father. I'm constantly falling... Why is this so?

I'm plagued by nightmares... I don't really dare to sleep or even close my eyes...

"Do not grieve the Holy Spirit." that's what I wrote on my board. Why aren't I remembering what I wrote?

The latest nightmare I had was just last night... Really scared me. I never dream any good dreams anymore... I either have nightmares or I don't dream at all...

I've prayed for so long for God to take it away but nothing yet...

It's been what? About 1 and a half months already since it started...